“And I Surrender”

It’s the saddest moment
Of the year by far
As I lean against
The window pane
And nothing’s broken
For I don’t have a heart:
You should go ask the girl
Who took it away.
You’ll find me holding
Back my tears,
Sitting by the silence
Of this stairwell;
As you can see,
I’m slowly losing my grip
And all I need is
Someone reaching for me
And fill that hole
That you dug
Where I’s keeping
All my hopes
And give me something
To believe in
And fight for
As I’m watching
You watching me
Falling to pieces
And why can’t you hear
What these eyes
Are screaming?
The stars draw your face
And the waves have your voice
As they crash on my feet
Repeating your name
And the planets collide
As I drown in the noise
Of the whispering ceiling
I’m staring again

And I surrender, my love,
This time is for real,
I can’t stand
Another night like this
And I’m suspended alone
By the edge of this cliff
I can’t stand
Another day
If you’re not here,
If you’re not here with me.

It’s the greatest story
I’ve ever written by far
Without pencils,
Pens, paper or ink
And do not worry,
I got used to the scars;
See I’m wearing them
All on my sleeves.
You’ll find me frozen
In the haze of a smile
You can’t even tell it’s fake.
As you can see,
I’m still here
Wasting my time,
Trying to find
The best thing
I could say
To look strong
At your eyes,
To make you laugh
And forget
What we know
‘Bout this life
And lose my head
In your hands.
I’m watching
You watching me
Falling to the ground
And why can’t you hear me
When I scream my heart out?
The stars draw your face
And the waves have your voice
As they crash on my feet
Repeating your name
And the planets collide
As I’m tossing a coin
Down a well,
I’m just praying again

And I surrender, my love,
This time is for real,
I can’t stand
Another night like this
And I’m suspended alone
By the edge of this cliff
I can’t stand
Another day
If you’re not here,
If you’re not here with me

And the planets collide
As I’m tossing a coin
Down a well,
I’m just praying again

And I surrender, my love,
This time is for real,
I can’t stand
Another night like this
And I’m suspended alone
By the edge of this cliff
I can’t stand
Another day
If you’re not here,
If you’re not here with me

So I
Surrender.

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